Last night I walked outside to check the mail. The kids were in bed. It was dark. I could see down the hill and over the lake. Lights were twinkling, dogs were barking and far away cars were breezing by. It was still warm, but there was a nice cool breeze under the heat. Just by closing that front door I felt like I was in a different world. And suddenly I wanted to walk. Not walk away. Just walk around. I wanted to stay in that quiet warm air and just be alone.
So I got a crazy idea. What if I woke up IN THE MORNING while it was STILL DARK and walked? I know. You’re shocked. It’s highly unusual for people to acutally, you know, exercise. And wake up in the morning.
Seriously, I’ve had such a hard time with my “new year’s resolution” to get up before the kids. I read Inspired to Action and I so want to be that person! But I cannot make myself get up at 5am (because Asa usually wakes up between 6 and 6:30) to read my Bible, take a shower or exercise. All I can think about is if I’m going to wake him up early by being too loud or how warm my bed is or if I should be cleaning instead. I’m too stressed out sitting in my house!
So, what if I could get away from it all? What if I could walk out the door and shut it behind me? What if I didn’t have to think about if Asa woke up early? What if I didn’t have to worry about making too much noise while I took a shower or rifled through my books or turned on my computer?
I’m thinking (THINKING, mind you) about getting up while it is still dark, slipping on my shoes, grabbing my iPod and walking out of the house. I’m not trying to do a Couch to 5K or anything. I just need to be awake before my kids yank me out of bed. And if I could find something good to listen to on my iPod…something to feed my spirit while I stretch my body. Well, it might be a win-win.
Here’s where I need your help: what should I listen to? I don’t really get inspired by music. And if I did, my husband has got our iTunes filled to the brim. I would totally love a fiction book, but they aren’t always the most edifying things. I was thinking of maybe a podcast or a non-fiction book that would be encouraging. Not something like break-free-of-your-inner-demons or come-to-grips-with-your-terrible-sins. I don’t want to be sobbing down the street. Just something that would speak Life into mine. I’ve never subscribed to a podcast before. So, any suggestions?
Help! I need some alone time and I think I might (MIGHT) be able to do this!