Jesus

Every Day…

by oh amanda on June 3, 2011

in Jesus,writing

sunset

photo by the ridiculously talented Beth Fletcher

Every day I wonder if what I’m doing is ok.

Is right.

Is good.

My kids watch TV during breakfast. Should we sit at the table and talk instead?

I blog during their naps. And sometimes I surf. And tweet. And ignore my inbox. Should I do the laundry instead?

I make dinner at 5pm. Maybe I should think about it before then?

I discipline. Should I spank instead? Or try a time out? Maybe I should just ignore the bad behavior?

I get up at 6 and still can’t squeeze a shower in before Asa gets up. Maybe I should get up at 5:30?

I read other blogs and think, “Oh, I should have written that!”

I forget the important things because I’m focused on the now. Or because I don’t want to think about the hard.

And every day this happens again. It’s like Groundhog’s Day in the life of a stay-at-home mom. I wonder how I’m doing. If I’m doing what God wants. And then the next day I wake up and try to do better.

I’m not sure if it’s a treadmill. Or if I’m getting up one step closer, one day closer, one hurdle closer to where God wants.

I know God orders my steps. He’s planned a life of hope for me. Am I spending my life following what he’s laid out?

What if every day we could see the progress we made? What if every day we changed one thing to get closer to what God has? What if every day were a step toward the good in store for us?

I think it is.

Even when I don’t feel it.

Don’t see it.

Can’t feel it.

Jesus promised he’d never leave us or desert us. Not one day. Every day He is with me.

And I’d be a fool to think he was standing idly by.

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linked to the sparkler of a woman, the Gypsy Mama and her 5 Minute Friday.

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Be My Everything

by oh amanda on April 4, 2011

in Jesus

(in)courage pool 2

photo by the fabulous dawn camp

We sang this at our {new} church yesterday. My prayers and thoughts are in {} below…

God in my living {of course. that’s easy.}
There in my breathing {hmmm. like every second of the day?}
God in my waking {eww. like when I don’t want to get up for #hellomornings.}
God in my sleeping {He makes me lie down in perfect peace.}
God in my resting {rest? what’s that?}
There in my working {am I cleaning the house WITH God?}
God in my thinking {negative, aggravated, mean, frustrated and worried thoughts? He’s in there with all those?}
God in my speaking {to my husband? to my children?}

Be my everything {yes.}
Be my everything {please.}
Be my everything {every.thing.}
Be my everything {e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.}

God in my hoping {for my immediate future}
There in my dreaming {and my kids’ futures}
God in my watching {the seemingly insignificant…and the minutes/hours my eyes watch my computer…}
God in my waiting {for Him? for me to get with it?}
God in my laughing {thank. you.}
There in my weeping {thank you?}
God in my hurting {cannot hurt without you.}
God in my healing {cannot heal without you.}

Christ in me {oh.}
Christ in me {really?}
Christ in me the hope of glory {*gulp* me?}
You are everything {more of YOU less of ME}

You are everything {I need YOU.}
Jesus, everything! {Jesus. Thank you for holding together my life with your Word. Help me lean on you and make you welcome in EVERYTHING.}

Everything by Tim Hughes

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A Blood Stained Piece of Wood

by oh amanda on January 17, 2011

in Jesus

Piling Wood Rust

I’m reading the BEST book for my #hellomornings. It’s called Treasured by Leigh McLeroy. It’s actually a book I got to review and uhm…never did. But here I am a few weeks months years later reading it and lovin’ it!

{Note to PR folks: Do not give me books.}

Every chapter is about an object in the Bible–Joseph’s Technicolor Dream Coat, Adam and Eve’s fig leaf clothes, Hagar’s waterskin and more.

Today’s object was a “blood stained piece of wood”.

And just that gets me.

She began talking about the Virginia Tech massacre.

And then the Passover where every firstborn in Egypt was killed…except the Israelites who spread lamb’s blood on their door posts.

And her sister sick with cancer and facing death.

And even about Harry Potter when he gave his life to save his friends.

And all that DEATH? It made realize remember how very tenuous the link between life and death is. I couldn’t help but think about how quickly death could come to me and my loved ones. I thought about how my kids are so fragile that even a small fall could harm them fatally. I thought about the hepatitis C that is trying to ravage my dad’s body. I thought about car wrecks and heart disease and cancer and all the things we see every. single. day. Death is real.

But oh! OH!

Life.

Frederick Buechner says, “What’s lost is nothing to what’s found and all the death that ever was, set next to life, would scarcely fill a cup.

Does that feel right to you? Do you look at the death and consider it SMALL in comparison to your life? If you are a Christian, I hope you do. Because it’s exactly why Jesus came.

Leigh McLeroy paints a beautiful picture with these words, “The perfect Son of God bled on wood, stretched out top to bottom and side to side like the stained door frame of the ancient Jews’ thresholds the night the death angel raided Egypt. He became our Passover lamb, offered once for all time.” (see Hebrews 10:11-12, 14)

Jesus’ death became OUR death. Or rather HE experienced OUR death. John Piper says, “Death is now a transition from life to better life, from faith to seeing, from groaning to glory, from good fellowship with Jesus to far better fellowship with Jesus, from mixtures of pain and pleasure to all pleasure, from struggles with sin to perfect affection for Jesus. We have [already] passed from death to life.

Are you hearing this? Holding on to it?

Death is dead.

When Jesus died he really did destroy death.

You can fear death, you can hide from it. You can be saddened by another’s death. But your death? As a Chrsitian, it does not exist. When you placed your faith in Christ, when you put your life in His and made His life your own–you gave your death away.

And when your peanut-shell of a body gives out on this earth, you will just continue on in the life God created for you. I love CS Lewis’ description of moving into the “afterlife”:

The term is over; the holidays have begun. The dream is ended; this is the morning…All their life in this world…had only been the cover and title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story, which no one on earth has read, which goes on forever, in which every chapter is better than the one before.”

Jesus offers life. Rather, he offered up HIS life so that you can keep your life. An eternal life with Him.

Death has been swallowed up in victory.
Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 
But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
1 Corinthians 15:54-57


{this post was inspired by–and has quotes from Leigh McLeroy’s book, Treasured. Yes, I received it for free. No, this post was not because I got it as a review. I just LOVED reading God’s truth in it today. And wanted to share it with you.}

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