{photo by the delightful Alicia. that’s me in the middle flashing the ILY.}
When I look in the mirror I am surprised by my dark hair. I was a blond when I was little. Well, at least a nice dark, dirty blond. Then suddenly I was darker. And now I’m a full-fledged brunette.
But I do the same thing with my brother. He’s a 10 year old blond, right? Oh, wait. He’s actually a 30 year old man with a full-time job and a wife and kid? Well, in my mind he’s a 10 year old blond drawing pictures and eating oranges after school.
It’s weird how you can be surprised at how you look. You look at yourself every single day. How can you not see yourself? How can you forget what your own brother looks like when he lives in the same town as you?
I wonder if there are other things I don’t see in the mirror anymore? My real attitudes? My true self? Am I seeing someone that’s not really there? Am I seeing someone better? Worse?
I want to embrace my brunette. I want to embrace the 33 year old wrinkles, the skin that will never ever clear up and the mom-face that has replaced the teenage-face. And I want to embrace the 33 year old attitudes and the mom-face that leads her family.
I pray when I look in the mirror I see who I really am. And not what I pretend to be, wish I was or try too hard to keep.
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That’s such a nice family picture.
I realize this might not be your most important point, but I laughed about seeing your brother as a blond. I have a cousin and a best friend who I swear are both blonde – but they haven’t been for YEARS! I still see their 12-year-old hair, I guess!
I’m serious! Jason is almost as dark as me and sometimes when he walks through the door I do a double take!
I pray to see myself the way God sees me, because, frankly, I don’t like what *i* see at all.
Oh, and you are a BEAUTIFUL brunette, btw!
Oh, I miss the days when I had lovely light blond hair! Sometimes I wish I *would* go full brunette, anything but this indeterminate betwixt-and-between shade I have currently.
So not the point of this post, I know. I just had to get that off my chest.
I do the exact same thing to my brothers – and my littlest brother finally had to ask me to stop calling him “Lukie” and switch to Luke once he hit 30 🙂
Hey, Amanda. Here from Lisa-Jo’s site. I may be partial but I think brunettes have more fun 🙂 I know what you mean. I am learning to embrace what I see as well, wrinkles, brown hair that is turning silver, and all.
I enjoyed your post!
Hello Amanda,
Just stopped by from Lisa-Jo’s site. I’m a brunette too–but the gray is coming through. So true –we need to embrace the changes!
“I wonder if there are other things I don’t see in the mirror anymore? My real attitudes? My true self? Am I seeing someone that’s not really there? Am I seeing someone better? Worse?”
What a challenge to daily allow my heart to be searched by the Father so that when I look in the mirror, my heart reflects the person that I want to be.
Love it!
i want to embrace the 33 as well. i want to be who i am….who i really am…and know that god embraces my mess. loves me in spite of my short comings and has amazing things in store for this life. this year. this day. this sweet sweet family!
love this.
I thought I was a freak because I am so often surprised by what I see when I look in the mirror. Every time I look I expect to see my 25 year-old self. I think I am going to look like I do in my engagement picture. Wouldn’t that be nice.
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